The bleeding is now very minimal, but I still don’t feel great. More than anything though. I’m having to hide how much of a raging bitch I want to be. Since he was the only one I could express rage to, the poor/dumb guy from Enterprise Car Rental was not fortunate enough to avoid the rage (mostly in the form of talking to him like he’s an idiot):
DUMB RENTAL CAR GUY (DRCG): “Bethany? I’m here.”
ME: “Where are you?”
DRCG: “In the hotel lobby.”
ME: “Any chance you can pick me up on the side entrance where I asked to be picked up at?”
DRCG: “Sure, I’ll be there in a sec.”
ME: “See you in a second. I’m walking out now.”
I wait in the designated meeting spot for 10 minutes.
ME: “Hi, this is Bethany. Where are you?”
DRCG: “Uh…(to someone else), where am I? (Valet) I’m at Valet.”
NOTE: The Valet stand at my San Jose hotel is about 15 feet from the hotel lobby.
ME: “So, are you driving over to get me?”
DRCG: “Where was I supposed to go again?”
ME: “Nevermind. I can see you talking to your friend and I need to get my car. I’m walking to you.”
NOTE: I’m really trying to not do a lot of walking.
ME: “Hi. I’m Bethany.” (said with attitude)
We start driving.
DRCG: “I’m having a bad day too. I got in late and my boss bitched me out.”
ME: NOTHING – but I’m thinking, “You, late? What a surprise, considering you’re 20 minutes late to pick me up.”
DRCG: “Why are you having a bad day?”
ME: “Personal stuff. It’s why I needed you to pick me up at the other entrance. I’m not supposed to be walking much.”
DRCG: “Oh. Sorry. You look OK. What could be that bad?”
I pause before answering. I almost don’t answer. Then I say to myself, “Fuck it.”
ME: “My body is trying to balance aborting a dead gestational sack without miscarrying my baby who’s still alive.”
DRCG: “Oh.”
We didn’t talk the rest of the way to the rental car agency...which was 30 minutes away.
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As for what’s actually happening with TBD, they don’t know. Hopefully things will be OK until I get to the doctor on Monday – but even then, they may not know. It’s not typical what’s happening.
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under normal circumnstances, does the other sac stay in the womb until the other baby is born? this sounds so horrible. i'm really rooting for TBD to win this fight!
I don't know what to say, other than I'm saying a prayer for you, and if TBD has just half of your strength, then he/she will be just fine.
Monday seems far away, so hang in there. I can't believe you said that to the driver...wait, actually I can.
Thinking good thoughts!
Why are you talking about terrible, serious medical situations, regarding your baby, and I'm laughing my ass off? Quit writing about this stuff in such a funny way.
I love the fact that he asked you what your problem was...like he thought he was going to help solve it or something. Whatever his plan might have been, when he asked, it was quickly altered. Funny.
Let us know if you need anything.
--Adam
Wow. I'm so sorry this is happening. I can't imagine what you're feeling right now.
And considering all of that, I think you were nice to the rental car guy.
We'll be thinking about you and wishing the weekend to whisk by quickly for you so you can get peace of mind on Monday.
Like Alex, we're rooting for you and TBD as well. Please let me know how I can help - my schedule is really flexible and I'm happy to help.
Thinking of you and TBD and wishing you a quick weekend.
So sorry to hear you are going through this agonizing trauma and limbo. We wish you guys the best. Try to indulge in some serious couch surfing. But, seriously, can't your doc see you today?
Wait, I guess you are still on the road? If so, I'm wishing you a super easy, dumbass free trip back.
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